The year that changed everything. Klara.

The year that changed everything.

 

A year has passed since I gave birth to my baby Daughter. It’s been a magical time, full of love, unexpected feelings, getting to know a little human being and myself. Guessing Her needs and my emotions. A year of huge changes that I am grateful to Her for.

 

It is amazing that a human being that cannot even speak yet, is able to convey so much. That a being who cannot read, teaches so well. Klara has taught me that the meaning of life is living for the other person. Thanks to Her I understand that family is the most important. Thanks to Her I know that Klara and Robert are the most important to me.

It is amazing that someone who has not worked a day in Her life is able to show so distinctly the work life balance. I used to know a lot about balance before, I even thought I was practising it. However, it was not until Klara was born that I could fully understand it and apply it in my life.

It is amazing that someone whose character and personality are still in the making, can change priorities. Klara has changed mine. Scruffy, sleep-deprived, with no time for my favourite workout but still the happiest in the world. This is what I am today. A year ago it would have been unthinkable.

It is amazing that someone whose company is limited to family members, knows about people so much. She teaches me understanding and empathy for others. Maybe they are angry because there’s something lacking in their lives? Maybe they are shouting on the outside because they are crying on the inside? When Klara cries, I give her a hug. Long and tight. Everyone needs it.

It is amazing that a human being who knows nothing about Greek philosophy knows so much about stoicism. Practises mindfulness with no need to explain the rules of meditation. It seems she knows about being here and now very well. This patience and being “here and now” are more difficult than my karate fight patterns.

It is amazing that this little and vulnerable person has the power to change an adult. Thanks to her I have found some room for my weaknesses. I no longer demand absolute persistence from myself, I do not stop the tears from falling. I feel safe next to Her though I know that if anyone would ever want to harm Her, I would turn into a lioness – the most bloodthirsty fighter in the world.

It is amazing that someone who needs constant attention and care, provides endless relaxation. Spending time with Klara is the biggest reward and favourite entertainment. Being a mom relieves better than anything else in the world.

It is amazing that a third person connects the other two beloved ones even more. A baby brings parents together, releases hidden layers of feelings, makes them aware they are the most important to each other. Waking up at night has become as important for the daddy as scoring goals in the most important matches and this combination of sensitivity and strength is even more manly than his athletic body.

 

My dear daughter, please remember:

That I thank You.

That I love You.

That You are the most important.

 

Your mom.